Following God's voice

Recently, I had the extremely hard task of declining a job offer. Well, this is hard, because I have been looking for a job for quite a long time. Six years, to be precise.

So, when this offer came knocking, I felt happy, and giddy. I gladly accepted. But, no sooner had I accepted, than a heavy feeling fell upon me. It's like God was telling me not to follow that job. It took a lot of wrestling, but finally I accepted. I made up an excuse for not reporting on the reporting date. (I hope they'll not push the date and ask me back, though). 

This was tough. It was the toughest decision I ever made. After all those years of toiling. I almost wailed. I fought back. I tried to reason. But finally, I accepted. I gave in. Mostly, it was after God reassured me that He was still on my side. After reading scripture, and having friends reassuring me that God is in control. Everything belongs to Him. He's a miracle working God, He's a wonderful God.

All these occurrences made me question many things. One of them is - am I truly able to trust God? Not the cliches I keep saying. But am I really able to follow blindly? Like Moses, or Abraham, or Noah? Do I trust Him? Am I still before Him? What does 'Trust and Obey' really mean to me?

With all these thoughts, I realize I got to reconsider my thinking. I need to trust God with all I am, and all I can be. I need to know He is my all in all, He knows me no matter what. I need to follow His voice, despite being in the wilderness for close to a million days. He created me, He knows how He will sustain me, He has the upper hand.

I decide, from now on, to follow His voice, no matter how wierd or wrong it may sound.

When the heart cannot be really full

It's with much horror that I read the news on Oprah's new development - she started a religion and a church. That was, by far, the worst news I received in years.


Of course, many, many, thoughts ran through my mind. First, I thought: these really are the end times. Then I thought: What if she is the new Antichrist or something? I also thought: Maybe she's lost it, she needs to see a shrink. And another thought, that keeps lingering in my mind was: With all the wealth and social status she has, why does she get this far? Can't she be content with what she has? With everything going for her, is this one of the feathers she wants to put on her cap?


Also made me wonder - Is her heart ever full? Is anyone's heart ever full? Can the heart of man say "Enough"? And why not? Isn't there an upper limit as to what the human heart can handle? Led me to one word: Greed. Greed is the one thing that can never say "Stop!! Enough!!" Greed is the voice that lies to you to want what you don't even need. Greed is a 
bottomless pit that cannot be filled in any way possible.


Has greed really entered people's hearts that bad? Is it the emotional pet that we let into our hearts, but leave it untamed and bend over backwards at its every whim? Can greed really drive one to do insane, insatiable things, like making people bow down to him/her in great honour? And why should we even let greed go that far? Why should we let greed dictate what we should do? Can't we tame it down?


While I may not be an expert on life, these two things I know for sure: Oprah's greedy ambition will certainly lead her to a disastrous end, and if greed is the driving factor in your life, then, even the best and largest achievements will never be enough. There'll always be hunger for more and more.

So he ventured into music... who knew?