Thinking out loud

At times I think out loud. Maybe too loudly.

I wonder where I'll be in a few years' time. Will I be married? Single? With children? Without children? In the city? In the country? Abroad? Rich? Wealthy? Poor?

I wonder what kinds of friends I'll have. Will they be beautiful? Classy? Upward? Poor? Loving? Many? Few? Close by? Far?

I wonder what kind of house I'll have. Will it be big? Small? In the City? In the country? Uptown? Downtown? Square? Round? An apartment house? A condo? A mansion?

I wonder how I'll look. Will I look fabulous? Boring? Simple? Complicated? Classy? Trashy? Friendly? Scary?

Will I be loved? Hated? Ignored? Embraced? Appreciated? Lost?

And I do have to realize that I don't have all the answers. God does. He's there in the future. And He knows all the answers. Chances are that He won't be telling me much, and all I have to do is trust Him.

Learning the hard way

I thought I knew everything I knew about life.

That is, until recently. Things took a turn for the weird. Everything I had learned about life was put under fire. The test was great, I absolutely failed. I knew, then, I know nothing about life. No matter how much I brag, no matter how experienced I think I am, I know nothing.

I realized I had to turn to the only one who knows about life and living - God. I have to turn to Him, whether I feel like I know everything, or I know nothing. Because He knows more than I. He created life itself. I can't know it all, especially about life.