Of late, I've been going through some weird changes in my life, mostly spiritual. Everything seems awkward, and confused. My spiritual life hit some sort of snag. The hey days, when I'm on top of the world, when everything seems like a long Halleluyah song seems to have taken some sort of break. Those days when I would skip happily out of bed to embrace the world seem to have crawled into a rock somewhere.
Now, I get into bed, and wake up every morning wondering what may have happened. At times I feel like I need to jumpstart my spiritual life. My prayers have been reduced to tears and "Why me, oh why me?". I walk around wondering whether God is watching me from a distance, or is walking with me.
Yet, I find it ironic that He says He'll never leave us nor forsake us, He will be with us till the end of age, though we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, he will not leave us. I find it seriously interesting to note that though He seems far away, He is just but a whisper away. I may feel totally lost in all the emotional roller coaster, but He found me. He walks with me even when I don't hear his footsteps.
With all His promises, I get to realize I'm at one of those moments when I'm lost, yet found. I may be wandering about in life, but in reality He's guiding me in a way I can't fathom or imagine. I may feel like I'm swallowed up by some dark cloud, but even there He still is.
What a feeling, what a comforting feeling to know that He found me, no matter how lost I feel!!
