A while ago, I taught a class of some rather spontaneous students. And one
of the out-of-the-blue things they did was to ask for an exam they weren't
prepared for.
The students came to class, and out of the blue, one of them decided that
they wanted to do the exam. She insisted that she wanted to do the exam on that
very day, never mind that she hasn't previously studied for it. The other exams
were overwhelming her, and she felt like getting over and done with the class I
was teaching would give her some relief. And the others jumped in and joined
her. They complained of the stress of dealing with so much work, and throwing
one piece of load from the bandwagon would make things so much lighter. They
even were OK if they failed the paper, just as long as it was out of the way.
So, half-heartedly, I accepted. I gave them the paper, seriously
half-heartedly. I knew what it is they were asking, they were pretty much
jumping off the twentieth floor hoping to land alive. But I gave it to them
anyway. And oh, the complaining I heard during the exam! The ooohs, and aaahs,
and what-the-heck-is-this and oh-my-God were seriously overwhelming. My heart
really went out to them.
As I was watching them, and feeling really hurt for them, I wondered: How
many times have I done the same thing? How many times have I asked God for
something, insisted and almost thrown a tantrum, only to mourn when it comes my
way? How many times have I justified doing something, magnifying the positives,
only to be crushed and hurt when all is said and done?
Am I really willing to go the whole nine yards? When I make a request, am I
making it from a wish-upon-a-star point of view, without thinking of the
consequences? Am I ready to deal with the downsides that come with the
decisions I make? Am I being prudent, or just wishful?
Am I asking for rain, then complaining about the mud?
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