I've been a Christian for the most part of my life. Ever since I was a young enuff, I've always considered myself an averagely good christian.
Or so I thought. Until lately. I discovered that maybe I may not be as good a christian as I earlier placed myself to be. My ride on my high horse came to an abrupt halt. I thought I had it all under control, until I looked at myself sometime ago. Things weren't all that.
I discovered many things that truly surprised me. While I had this inane belief I was the calmest, I harshly and strangely discovered that one small thing can have the ability to make me spit fire and brimstone. I thought I was kind and generous, only to discover that there are times I'm embarrassingly stingy (especially when it comes to food and expensive stuff). I had the idea that I was oh so patient, until I find myself in a situation where I'm the hundredth (or so) person in a long, winding, snaking line moving more than slowly.
Well then, maybe I'm not the best of saints in the house. I got my own quirks and perks here and there. I'm not the Christian powerhouse I thought I was. If Christians are to be Christ's ambassadors, I must admit I've been a lousy one. If I were to make a log, I don't think I'd like what I see.
Maybe then, I realize I need something really bigger than me. I need to get back on track, and fast. I guess from now on, I'll say goodbye to the old me, and look for divine intervention. God's Grace and the Holy Spirit will be my new guides now. I start afresh and anew, hoping this time, I'll do much better...
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